im sadd agn..
tis time ive not e slightest idea why.
I DONT WANNA MOOD SWING..
NONO I DONT.....
but why?
why m i feeling so heartbroken?
i just donno whye..
its like why wud i feel tis way for NORTHING?
so its like its kinda like mood swing ya..
BUT WHYE?
i dont wan to haf tt..
i wan to b e siao zha bor i used to b..
simple easy n fun..
to not haf so many..i donno wat hell gg on in my head..
i wanna CRY..u noe cry n cry..
until i feel happy n relived..
but my body dont wan me to..
i guessed im not used to e type of crying easily sort..
my body is adapted to my craziness le..hahs?
not so easily to adjust i think..
hahas.. ._.
but its a gd thing!
n at least i haf my frens..those siao zha bors n siao zha gongs..
to kip me gg alright! :D
i think tis time e mood swing come at such a WRONG time..
its after exams man..
cant u just leave me alone?
let me chill n haf e fun ive planned for so long?
n its getting pretty serious i think..
e mood swing maythm..
i dreamt of suiciding last night..
car crash on a taxi n i survived but i jumped dwn a building in e end..
i donno y..
I DONNO! :(
but rest assure im not so dumb to end my life (:
mayb its got sth to do wif e show i watch last sat..
Ab-normal beauty..
hahas..n of course me being an art student!
tt show got art works hahas s mayb yup..x.x
wat an idiotic dream rite?
n i finally understand tt..
ur not e one.. :D
ya i think so..
i hate ppl agn n agn somewat promised me n ltr brk e promises..
i think nearly everybody hate tt too..
n i hate being lied to..
if i toy ppl..ur nt one to mess wif me too or toy wif me.. (;
so well..
i need to do more reflection on tis thing..
n i think me hiding tis explosion of mood swing tts is getting so serious..
is gg to make me faint..
seriously n make me lie in bed on an endless coma..x.x
n i cant breathe..i need to breathe..
n i think i gg mad..
e more i try to cover tis explosion..
e more its consuming me..
i cant take it so anymore..
I_WAN_TO_CRY..
plz body let me do so .. ..
let me at least release cn?
i wan to release..
its really getting so hard to breathe..
e more i dont care.. e more i try to cheer up n b happy..
e more i think my world is ending..
n e more i think im a fool..
n e more i think im comsume by tis feeling of end-of-my-world..
comsume by tis black hole..
i really wish to slp forever too..
i cant i just cant..
n yunxin seem scared by me ytd?
coz she said "tis is e first time i went out wif u n u emo"..
is it so serious? i wanted u all to think im acting u noe..
even its somewat real..
i dont wan to b labeled e "emo" girl..
i dont wan to....
i actually wanted to release tis on a piece of paper..
but i still prefered typing out..
writing is so waste of time..
waste of my energy..
huever came to chance upon tis blog n noe me..
plz dont think ive changed..im not..
im trying to not to change..
n i nva..
im still crazy..mad..for now..
i donno when tis will explode..
but if it does..plz dont leave me alone..
i wanted to chill but i dont wan to b left alone..
im scared to b alone..somehow i m..now..finally..
is it sth to b glad abt? i donno..yet agn..i donno
if i really rant my anger on anyone..plz forgive me..
im trying to b super forgetful n super hyper..
so as to surpress tis..
if i failed in doing so..n over do all tis things..
dont care me..
just tt too much happen in my family n my life..
i of course cant give u e details..
its too private..
i think no one will noe exactly e full story yet..
dont even push me to confide yup..
i'll confide if i haf to..
but for now..
tis is wat im so busily occupied in..
pardon for spelling errors..
n pardon me for wasting ur time if ur reading tis......
SMILES,
:D